Inches, goals, and perception

“The next time you feel yourself reaching for unhealthy food, ask yourself why. Why are you doing this? Why do you think you need this? Is this going to make you feel better? For how long? How will you feel tomorrow after you’ve made this decision?” – CalorieCoach.com
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I just finished reading this article from February called “Why You Shouldn’t Make Weight Loss You Primary Goal”. It was posted on MizFitOnline.com as a guest submission by Tony Shroder of CalorieCoach.com (I quoted him above, from a different article though). And it really touched on how difficult it really is to focus on other aspects of measuring fitness because weight, like age, is just a number. So many of the fitness bloggers I follow weren’t always experts/fitness gurus but instead normal people that woke up one day and decided to put one foot in front of the other until they reached their personal goals. The fact that this was written by someone that knows how hard  it is to take stock of your goals, celebrate small achievments, and stop playing mental games really inspires me to focus on other aspects of fitness even thought I KNOW it’s going to be a huge struggle to break up with my scale.
   
I’ve been struggling for so long with numbers. A few months ago I seperately emailed two of my closest friends in fitness and told them how I weigh XXX and it’s frustrating because I’m the same clothing size as high school yet a good 30-40 lbs heavier. Of course both of them told me how I need to stop being a mental prisoner to the scale and took a good look at the image in the mirror and the immense progress I made to get back into my regular pant size and the muscle I built that alters what the scale says. Just a few weeks ago an old friend messaged me saying “you look good… You looking really f*cking good.” And now that I’ve managed to turn my eating habits around in the past 6 weeks and actually stuck to it, I feel GOOD!
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How I look and feel leads me to beg myself “Hello you? Yes, you! You are wearing the same freaking clothes, you look the same, everyone is proud of you! If you actually lost 40 pounds and tried to weigh what you once did, you wouldn’t be any of the things that you love about yourself. You wouldn’t have hips, boobs, a butt and all the muscle that comes with your new found fitness! And you have those all in a nice curvy FIT package.” I have other goals, I KNOW I’ve reached a huge one (though I rarely admit to myself that I’ve completely turned my health around) but of course I want to “slim down and tone up” more, feel 100% comfy in my current clothes, and get into just one (possibly 2) smaller pant sizes…. all the while focusing on INCHES.
 
But honestly the constant goals to go beyond my current success is driving me nuts and leading me to not even enjoy my body right now. I can’t think of a time since I lost the originally 60 pounds where I said to myself “YOU ARE AMAZING! Take the day off! Enjoy the fruits of your labor superstar.” Instead every meal good or bad and every workout was done to reach some far off goal that I might not ever attain because it is so damn unreasonable to continuously put that kind of pressure of oneself physically and mentally.

So I want to challenge myself with these four things as markers of my success:
1. Taking my weight with a grain of salt and focusing on inches.

2. Measure my progress, literally, with a tape measure. I love my “Inches Saturday,” the day of the week where I record my current measurements. I’m always surprised by what the tape says, much better than the stupid scale.
 
3. Focus on toning up and eating as cleanly as I currently am.

4.Wake up every day and be grateful that you are in this body. Because if you were a twig you would be searching for all the missing curvy girly parts that bring all the boys to the yard.

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In terms of fitness, I’m really proud of myself. I’m trying to get back into lifting weights and more intense workouts now that I’m finished with physical therapy and it’s lighter outside later at night so I just finally have more TIME. I also am proud of the fact that it’s been 6 weeks since I had one of the many candies lying around the office. Go me! 

In the past 6 weeks I’ve lost 10.25 inches all over, including 5 from my waist (of I love being pair shaped) and about 7 pounds. SUMMER is soon and Spring weather is finally here! I am really happy that I’ve dug deep the past few weeks, it made the transition to dresses and sandal a snap since I didn’t have a bunch of winter weight to shed hehehe! The nicer weather motivates me even more and I’m excited to feel 150% by the first day of summer 🙂

All photos via pinterest.

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4 Comments Add yours

  1. Christina says:

    Congrats and great post!

    1. debbieniful says:

      Thanks Christina! Sometimes hard work is the best work 🙂

  2. bmagno12 says:

    Congrats Deb! You really have shown a lot of discipline!

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